Thursday, June 5, 2008
IN DISBELIEF
This blog is my way of telling someone how truly hurt i am. The person in question has been a soul mate a confidant and a net friend. Theres been rocky times in the past and i figured we got over all the hurdles one can cross on here. WRONG!!!! Theres always been that doubt in the back of my mind. Is this person too good to be true. Its not like we will ever meet or anything, but the trust we put in others is suppose to be solomn and a bond.
In life things find us even when we are not looking for them. Well in this case over and over these events found me. The days have been long and hard and to find that time when life takes a break and we can escape to a better place . filled with joy and fun and common comfort.How is it that we dont see the things in the front of our faces but we see things far away and clouded. I dont understand people some times. Ive tried to live an upstanding life. Kindness and caring for others , loyality and always there when im needed. But as like most we dont put ourselves in the front. If anyone can explain why people are like this, praying on the weak, controlling them as they like m and at the same time not opening themselves up to others. Is it selfish or just a cruel game people play.
This recent events have tarnished me for getting closer to others, opening up the secrets and privacy i usually keep. This time I promised myself I would never allow this to happen again.
In life things find us even when we are not looking for them. Well in this case over and over these events found me. The days have been long and hard and to find that time when life takes a break and we can escape to a better place . filled with joy and fun and common comfort.How is it that we dont see the things in the front of our faces but we see things far away and clouded. I dont understand people some times. Ive tried to live an upstanding life. Kindness and caring for others , loyality and always there when im needed. But as like most we dont put ourselves in the front. If anyone can explain why people are like this, praying on the weak, controlling them as they like m and at the same time not opening themselves up to others. Is it selfish or just a cruel game people play.
This recent events have tarnished me for getting closer to others, opening up the secrets and privacy i usually keep. This time I promised myself I would never allow this to happen again.
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